The Blush is off the Rose City

It wasn’t even dusk on the west coast when I sprawled out
on the king sized bed in a hotel room in Chelsea,
my legs and arms spread wide as they go,
no limbs at risk of touching any edge,
of falling off the luxurious comfort of vacation.
My burning eyes closed on their own
as I lay thinking
I should take the subway into Boston and make wild love to it,
this city I’ve just met.

The flight was overbooked.
“We need a volunteer,” they said.
“Who’s willing to delay going back?
Who is eager to stay another day?”
Or a week? Or forever?
Who’s willing to cancel their life altogether?

I could’ve already returned to the city of roses and bridges and rain,
rain,
rain.
To the dome of gray sky.
To the sitting job and the passionless demands
of adulthood.
To the mild coma of daily life.
To the place where I exchanged my youth
for a tired, middle aged woman.

A place whose charms and oddities,
once so delightful,
I’d like to once again be endeared to.

I came to it dry and sun withered,
and it made me moist;
I soaked it up like a dried sponge in a rain storm.
But now I’m damp
all
the
time
and I feel split
like fruit left to ripen too long on the vine.

I wouldn’t come back at all
if not for our children.
They belong to it
as much as me
and it’s they who pull me back,
like the sun draws the earth toward it
inescapably.

September 25, 2013

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